As many of you know by now, I am colonel Nadir Ali’s son; many of you know him because of his speech and interview about Bangladesh, but that was not a subject he usually talked about. What he DID talk about and write about for 40 years was Punjabi literature and Punjabi culture and his contribution to it was to write dozens of short stories set in various Punjabi settings. Many of these were published in two short story collections (Kahani kara and Kahani praga), one of which won a National book award, but both of which are now out of print. But Sucheet Kitab Ghar in Lahore has published ALL his writings in one large edition of their magazine “Pancham”. I managed to catch Covid and am laid up in quarantine (I had only mild symptoms, am fully vaccinated) so decided to translate some of his stories into English. My first attempt follows. The original Punjabi version I will post as screenshots at the end of this post. The full text of Kahani Kara can also be found as a PDF on scribd here.
I had been feverish since morning but by the afternoon it was really burning up. Amma had been with me since morning and it was very late when she finally left to take food to the men in the fields; she dragged my cot to the shade of the chinaberry in the lower courtyard and left me there. The fever raged and I was too far gone to get up from the cot. The chinaberry provided little shade, but I was too weak to get up and go inside; I had recurrent cramps and a sinking feeling in my heart. When will this suffering end? In my feverish imagination, I felt as if everything in the house was about to attack me. We had one pillow in the house and whoever felt most needy could use it. The smell of every family member had sunk into that pillow, which seemed to consist of two uneven lumps of cotton wool. I threw my head on it one way, then another, but without relief. I turned from facing the hand pump to face the empty kitchen and thought for a moment that I had found relief, but it was fleeting. Kitchens are for fortunate people. Our whole house had nothing in it, what to speak of the kitchen. In the evening my mother would borrow a glowing lump of coal from the neighbors and start the fire, but what was there to cook? Everyday we got the same chickpeas; even turnips seemed to be a luxury now!
This morning amma had tried her best to get me to eat something. A piece of roti with some milk, but one look at the milk made me feel like throwing up. I asked for salty lassi instead, but when I drank some I threw up. I felt very thirsty, but every time I drank water, I threw that up too. That gnawing hunger was bad enough, but then I felt my heart sink as well. As the fever rose higher, I felt like my head was going to explode. I tried the thicker end of the pillow, but that seemed to hurt my back so I shifted to the lower end, but without relief.
This lower courtyard is more or less the center of our house. The upper courtyard is for sleeping, the lower one has the handpump and the kitchen is on the other side of it. There is another open space as well, next to the door to the alley, we just called it the outer courtyard. Next to that is Amma’s room, which has only one door at this time. Chacha says he will put the other door on before winter. The door to the outside is also about to give way, and we need it to shut in the animals at night. Her room was always dark and dank with the smell of our waterlogged soil. In fact our entire village has hardly any houses and the land is all waterlogged!
“Hai Maa!”, I called out agonizingly. After all, if one cannot even cry out when sick then what is one to do? I called out again: “Hai, Hai..”. Not that anyone could hear me. In the afternoon the whole village falls into a coma; all one can hear is the cry of the doves and the rhythmic sound of our village’s very own flour mill. And that’s it. No one else makes a sound. “Hai maa..” I cried out again. Then dragged myself to the water pot the third time, turned around, threw up, and lost all hope. The fever opened up my senses though. Mother had prepared some mud for plastering the walls and the smell of the wet earth wafted up to me. But she had also added cow dung and some hay to the mix and it seemed to me that I would smell each item separately. I even smelt the soap lying in the washing area. Or I thought I smelt it. I wonder if all these smells were just in my head. My sense of smell is very good in any case. I may not see or hear something, but I can always smell it. Someone roasting some nuts, someone eating roti with ghee.. I could smell that a mile away. Hunger is also a smell. Today I smelt the neighbors, the village, the city, all the way to the bazaar in Nurpur city. I missed the city smells so much! The smell of the brick kilns, the smell of hot coals, the smell of the city’s giant garbage heap; I could smell it all; then I smelled Badru’s shop, but finally it was the fruit shop that got me. The smell of each individual fruit floated into my nostrils; mangoes, pomegranates, bananas, loquats, fresh smells and stale smells, I could tell each one apart, but oh amma! The grapes! It seemed to me that if only I could get some grapes, I would recover. My fever would break. My nausea would go away.
Amma! She is finally back! She never comes back from the fields in a good mood but maybe out of regard for my illness she tried to be nice today. “Amma, grapes!” I said it as if inviting her to guess my intention. “Grapes and Raisins! What world is your imagination wandering in today?” .
“it is grape season” I said wistfully and for the first time since morning, I laughed.
“What season are you talking about? It was just last year that I got you a grape, wasn’t it?”Then she too laughed. “Look, you are sweating! When your fever breaks, go to Nurpur and get yourself some grapes. I hear they are 4 annas a pound these days.. Whatever made you think of grapes today?”
“I just had a craving today” I said, half in jest.
“Here, i will heat you some milk” she said, and brought me back; back to the village, back to this house, back to me.
Punjabi Original: Full Text of these stories is also as a PDF here: https://www.scribd.com/document/491943026/Shahmukhi-Kahani-Kara-Nadir-Ali